Show Me a Happy Atheist and I'll Show You At Least Twenty Miserable Ones

Woke up with this for some reason, it was like a message in a dream, that said, "Show me a happy Atheist and I'll show u 20 miserable ones". Let it be known here that I don't have a personal dislike for Atheist, Scientology or any other religion, non-religion on the face of the earth. Well Jehovah Witnesses maybe, not because of their belief but because of their "over- bearing/ gotta shove this down your throat attitudes". I have been associates with all kinds and enjoy different perspectives and views, however, I never let it affect my belief. I rarely even allow myself to get into debates with opposing faiths/religions but, Atheist was something I had to understand and learn about. I wanted to know how & why they came to not believe in God. Most of these people once upon a time had a religion, they weren't born into Atheism or raised on it.

Fascinated I was on their many philosophies and dare I say, even facts. So they can make a lot of sense why religion as they call it, is bullshit. Going back to Christianity's violent roots, a religion based on love and forgiveness. That the bible has been written many times over at the hands of man.I've drawn a conclusion that thought the truth sets you free, facts can't make u miserable. They get no argument from me on these points but to say God doesn't exist? In all your facts you have no peace with self or life, whereas I have peace with both and it's due to my faith in God. If it's been proven that God doesn't exist through science and that the universe is responsible for aligning things in my favor then it doesn't explain the spiritual connection I have with an omnipresence I call God that is ever present in my life. So my faith is based on what I can't see but know exists while the Atheist does not believe anything he cannot see or trust anything he cannot see.

I asked for proof there is no God, they asked for proof there was. I said he's right here(pointing at heart) I can feel him. They say, "I can't see him, You being a good person is your own doing and choice. I don't give God credit for that" So U don't have to believe in God to be a good person, but how can you be a good person when you're miserable? And why are you miserable? Why do you have heart and other health problems(not saying believers don't but not constantly being attacked to the death of them either)vengeance, grudges, thick hatred for at least three people since you were a kid and just a doubtful cynic full of gloom? And dig this, they blame God for all the problems in their life health issues, loss of love ones, bad luck and so forth, but he doesn't even exist? Yet any good that befalls on them is from that of the universe. How can this be? How can you hate so much and say just because you don't believe in God you're still a good person? God aside,where is your PEACE? Why has the universe failed you on just having peace in your life? Did you not stare at the stars long enough, or acknowledge that scent that rain was coming last week?

One Atheist in particular that I have really enjoyed is George Carlin. I have no shame that Carlin has entertained, intrigued and caused me to think with his work("It's Bad For Ya",You Are All Diseased","Brain Droppings") of philosophies/facts on religion and rather God exists. I'd go so far to say even Jesus has chuckled with the man. Carlin suffered three heart attacks prior to his death, Outside the black humor he shares with his fellow Atheists I didn't see happy man. A man at peace with his life or what he believed even though he seemed content with it he wasn't at peace with it. Neither are the others I know. I am a spiritual person, not a religious person. Religion confuses me and contradicts itself. God does neither, I don't have the answers for why God allows death, takes people away from us, allows bad things to happen to us. I do not understand it.... but I accept it. Accepting that u don't understand and don't need to can make all the difference in rather you are blessed or cursed, happy or miserable in life.
So please, for the sake of argument show me One happy Atheist. Will you please step forward? The one that doesn't have a bad heart, still hating his father for walking out when he was a kid, walks around with a dark cloud over his head even though people find your black humor entertaining, your laughter isn't even the source of joy. By the way, I found this site, it's called Happy Atheist Forum, when I read the site I didn't think the person was happy. I saw ignorant bliss:http://www.happyatheistforum.com/viewtopic.php?t=791

Advocates or Antagonists?

Being
blessed with perception and cursed with analyzing shit to death, I
couldn't help but notice how on point some of my observations and
analysis are. Is it just me (God forbid), or does anyone else seem to
be seeing how those who represent and favor a certain cause, thing or
person(s) seem to lose focus on that which they are standing up for?
Seem to be losing their fucking minds in the process of? Is the thing
that drives you the very thing that will drive your ass crazy? Do you
think you're so slick in your game/motive to entertain that you forget
who you are and what you were doing in the first place?! Is the real
enemy out to get you so tough that he frames you and put the weapon of
destruction in your hand while you sleep to make you look like you
can't be trusted? Make you look like a fake... or are you really a
fake?


Isn't that like saying, "Say no to drugs" and smoking crack your
damn self?! Like Saying "Big is beautiful" and then starve yourself
skinny (Mo'Nique)? "Thou shall not commit adultery and fornication" and
get caught in the whore house with a dick up your ass and yours in
somebody's mouth(various preachers and senators)? "I love sister and
respect them, they deserve better", then go out and fuck over and
betray good intentioned females? I'm under oath to preserve life" and
let a man die cuz he has no insurance?
I've seen a lot of "die hard" advocates self destruct and worst than
that, let many people down and disappoint them. That's why we need to
have enough hope and faith within ourselves cuz most of your motivation
and edification is coming from a false source wisdom, preciseness and
experience. Stop letting waka flockas (motherfuckers) blow smoke up
your ass! I read a scripture in the bible where a man says God told him
to "Wait and see, watch and learn"! You better say that! Advocacy is
usually false advertising at it's best practiced in the most vital and
fragile aspects of humanity.


The good news is, they usually fuck
themselves harder than they fucked you! I got to thinking hard on this
when I heard some of the responses to Mo'Nique's Golden Globe speech.
Now even though it was a beautiful speech, she lost the devotion and
ability to hear from her followers. WHY?!!! She CHANGED on their asses!
So they didn't HEAR her speech they only SAW this heifer getting
skinnier and skinnier before their eyes that USE to rep Big sisters!
The only one's who heard her speak were the ones who didn't buy that
"I'm happy the way I am" speech she was selling before. If it's so
beautiful and you love yourself in that body, why are you running from
it? More importantly, what's running you AWAY from that which you had
such strong convictions about? Every body selling something but what do
you buy and why? Most people are selling it not because they believe in
it or actually use or practice it but because they can benefit from it
and you believing the hype. Practice what you preach!


Yeah I know
nothing is guaranteed, that's why I put all my faith in me , God and
what Dee knows! I'm a woman of my word, keeper of my own damn thoughts,
beliefs and convictions. I know I wouldn't be selling nobody out more
than I'd be selling myself out. Stand up for yourself and what you
believe in, don't waiver for another flavor cuz somebody that looked up
to you and had respect for you will be disgusted with you. No not them
, the image you see staring back at you in the mirror!
SMH it never fails, they will slip up and show you who they really are
every time. I can't say it enough... keep it real!

The Good Son:Evil Has Many Faces

Damn, that's all I could say when a relative still living in Highland Park where I grew up called me and told me to click on the news. I mean it's sad enough that the man killed his own son, haven't seen anything this horrific since the late Marvin Gaye was taking from us at the hands of his own father. That was less horrific for the fact Marvin was a full grown man said to be attacking his elderly father, but still ya know?! *sighs* But this?! According to the Aunt, dude had already fucked his son up for whatever he had done/said. She said he had knots all over his head like those Tommy Hearns gave Martin( Martin Lawrence). To escort the boy out in public naked,( he must have really lost it) to kill him in a field execution style?! This is his son and let's say the rumor(son was caught raping 3 year old sister) is true.... THAT is his little girl. A little girl who assumes her big brother will protect her and her father surely can. A father that is torn between protecting his baby girl against evil that happens to be his son. Remember the movie The Good Son? Did ol girl not let her biological son fall to his death in order to save the other child in her care? I'd like to think I would have beat his ass then have him arrested or put away in a mental institution. Hoping some day he would be well and try to help my baby girl get thru her ordeal. I'd like to think that I wouldn't play God in a situation like that. I only pray I never find myself in that position having been raped as a child myself. I'm just saying, people snap and as a result you have horrible mishaps. Clearly there are too many mofos walking around not on medication for their mental illnesses
Link to the story surrounding this post:
http://blog.al.com/spotnews/2009/11/post_222.html

Teasing Toughens? Is it ever constructive

So I've been thinking about what it means to be teased or being the teaser and rather it is ever harmless or helpful. Upon discussing this with a friend, I came to the conclusion that where teasing has hurt some, even destroyed.... it has helped me. I was teased most of my childhood, at home and at school. I was called everything, you name it from Lurch to flea bag, spooks,bucked tooth, blackie, ugly and many, many more.Don't get me wrong, at the time and during my early years it was torture and pure hell but the older I got the tougher I got without becoming like my offenders. I found myself becoming the hero and activist for bullied and teased kids in the hood. I also noticed with my growing confidence, that I could laugh with my teasers. This of course didn't happen til I was a teenager flunking my first semester of high school. I remember my Uncle Earl teasing me and calling me a dummy and telling me what each F(funky, foolish, feeble,etc.) stood for on my report card. At first I was laughing and then I started to realize that he might really believe I was a dummy. The thing is I knew I just didn't like going to school with kids I had nothing in common with. I guess part of me was avoiding conflict too. My Uncle also knew and was using a method I wasn't familiar with.... reverse psychology. He wasn't teasing me to hurt me , he was pushing the buttons that would make me fight back and prove him wrong. I turned all those F's into A's after that and he would tell me, "I knew you could do it". Now, there are kids that don't get it, who never come out fighting(mentally that is) when their backs are up against a wall. They end up forever scarred and crippled by bullies and teasers. Some even commit suicide. Some grow up and abuse their children and spouses.


There are also different types of teasing just are there are different personality types. So one can't be too careful when it comes to teasing individuals. With children teasing comes naturally but not consciously. Other than the fact they can sense when someone is shy, nervous or unsure of themselves, they really don't know what they're doing or why. With adults, it's usually them who have the inferiority complex and are trying to feel superior over their victims and their audience.When I tease I try to do it with love and consideration, it is never with malicious intent. I try to make a person realize there is a stronger person within and aim to bring him forth. That's why I have a philosophy that if you can laugh at yourself the world will laugh with you, but if you cry for yourself the world will still laugh at you. So why not laugh at yourself first? Then people will find the next best thing to do, respect you. I hate to see that so many people are destroyed and deeply affected by teasing so many years ago today. That they never got over it, never used it to find out who they were and what they needed to get to the next level in life.


It's a miserable place to be... the victim. Because it saids about you that your oppressor won even though he/she hated him/herself more than he hated you. That they have brought you into their realm of misery and despair for all eternity , be it in life or death. Remember, it's an even more miserable place to be the bully/teaser because they need something to feed off of. If you don't bite the bait, the fisherman doesn't eat that night ;)

Black Widows and the Need to Feed the Greed

Deidra Lane was a chilling story of an NFL wife who was born with a silver spoon in her mouth but robbed banks and murdered her husband, for a 5 million dollar insurance policy. I guess you could say she was going for platinum? I tried wrapping my mind around this one as I read of her release from being imprisoned for 8 years earlier this year. I guess you could say I'm a bit worried being the mother of children with star quality. What kind of people are out here preying on our son's and daughters? What's driving them to do these things when they seem to already have money? I mean this girl's dad paid a $100,000 bond to get her out of jail knowing she would be convicted. That's having money to throw around if you ask me. Was she just that rotten and spoiled that she had a bottomless pit in her soul that couldn't be satisfied? I mean it was found out that dude was broke and ready to leave her. Fred Lane Jr. returned that day to retrieve a motor cycle in order to sell it for cash. While she had been splurging and spending she was also robbing banks with the help of her best friend. Not to mention how easy on the eyes she is, was said to be soft spoken and kind. Friends and parents were totally blind sided by the fact that she didn't appear to be a gold digger because her parents were wealthy. See, I think it's very important to teach our children to value people more than they do material things like money and all it can afford them. Somewhere along the line money becomes their God, parents , best friends and spouses and the actual human form gets in their way to keep it and have more of it. There is really no other logical explanation for this woman going to extremes as to commit murder for something she has never been deprived of... wealth. No morals or compassion for life, only dollars. It wouldn't surprise me if her own father ended up dead now. She has a need to feed her greed that HE instilled in her. This young man is gone now, will never meet his daughter who was only 7 days old when her mother murdered him. The court had the nerve to give the orphaned child to his murderers parents?! MONEY TALKS and it don't have to be bullshit to walk! Now she is out 8 years later and back home to raise her daughter who will probably have the same materialistic disease she has. The least justice could have done is give the child to her father's family. Deidra Lane has not fed off humanity enough for the law and respect for human life to take her problem seriously yet. The Black Widow will attack again.

Get Away Cars: Toyota

*singing theme from an old Toyota commercial* "You asked for it, you got it Toyota!" Okay, what the hell is going on here? Are the makers of Toyota cars conspiring to kills us? Is this another terrorist act? No I'm joking, but not really because this is serious. These cars decide to accelerate without warning and against the drivers navigation at up 100 mph. We're talking up to 2000 cases being reported to date! So I ask you people, if you buy a Toyota are you asking for it? Are you planning some kind of get away that could result in a "Thelma and Louise flying off a cliff" kind of death? Are you suicidal? Are you a daredevil? These are just some of the reasons to buy a Toyota in an economy that's already killing us.

Family Dysfunctions

This is a hard one to swallow, it's like opening Pandora's Box. I noticed a lot families that consider themselves socialites or high society so to speak, don't like to admit that they have issues. If you were born in such a family you either had 1 of 2 choices, rebel or follow suit. You either got to wear the snobbish robe or be the asshole or jerk everyone wants to sabotage by saying you're nuts and influence others against. To keep the family secrets on lock down, some harsh things are done and said at the expense of this so called asshole or jerk. Let's just call this person a heckler in reverse. You see, even though they seem to rock the boat, they're actually trying to fix the broke down motherfucker.There's so much dust on top of issues that's been swept under rugs, even termites can't chew through them and breathe at the same time. The sad thing is, they think everything is running smoothly and long as you keep your mouth shut. When the truth is the whole damn family is headed towards the likes of a titanic tragedy due to improper navigation at the hands of a captain and crew(head of the family and elders) who cannot admit wrong doing and will throw your ass to the sharks before they do. I say let them throw you off and save yourself. For it is better to be eaten alive by sharks than your own people.

So here I am today wondering how old and bad habits survive generation after generation and no one dares to break the cycle of such destructive, traditional, ill fated pride and behavior. I'm wondering how those that follow and occasionally speak against things , which is acknowledging their awareness, continue to fall back in with fear they call respect rather than have the courage to set a better example by showing them a better or even right way? Even if the right way doesn't feel as pretty, earn you favor points it should certainly feel good to YOU. It should certainly earn you some respect. So knowing I will never fully understand the ways of a coward, I also will always prefer to be the heckler than the follower. I will always choose the truth over the illusion which destines us to delusion. Skeletons in the closet rattling in the descendants rooms years down the line keep them disturbed and in utter confusion about who they are and what they represent.Let those issues out the box and deal with them before they blow up in your faces. Let's not go to our graves knowing we've left our people in bondage!